i just dont feel the same anymore. the guilt comes back. i cant take it anymore. why does weight just haunt people? whether you have an easting disorder or not, you still know weight is a THING. it’s THERE. and it will ALWAYS be something you’ll talk about. worry about. it (ironically) eats and eats away at me and i will try to be comfortable and happy but give me 5 minutes to think about JUST how much i weigh - which is way over average for my height - HOW much i’ve eaten - which is just too much in one day - and HOW little i exercise and i may as well puke.